It’s the awakening. The suicide of my younger self. The suicide that leads to awakening.
I was in a constant battle with myself. Asking myself If I would be able to ever reprogram my core believes and rewire my brain. When you go through the process of awakening, there are a lot of bad energies and emotions coming up.
And what I kept asking myself was: do I want to be able to see, do I actually want to understand. Or would I rather stick to the reality I have created for myself in order to stay suffering, in order to be able to create.
Because I believe that I can only create out of pain. I was scared to let my ego go and learn gratitude, learn how to give love to others and myself. I was scared transforming into a new version of myself.
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credits:
In collaboration with ASBO production
Shot by Natalya Walker
Edited by Max Mason
Assisted by George Thomsen and Max Auberon
beat KOEN
songwriting Mimi Barks
production & mixing Mimi Barks,