On the 13th of March 2022, I lost my mother to pancreatic cancer, just 3 months after the diagnosis.
While my mum has probably never heard this song before, this one out of Metallica’s discography has always stuck with me for the supposed reason it was written - James addressing his mother’s battle with cancer.
Perhaps some time in the future I’ll cover something she loved. But for now, this one’s for my catharsis.
Love you, mum. Your were, and still are, truly brilliant.
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WIP artwork by NekoSnicker:
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It’ll also be on the next album, coming soon.
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Lyrics in case the video hurts your eyeballs:
Where do I take this pain of mine
I run but it stays right by my side
So tear me open and pour me out
There’s things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me
So hold me until it sleeps
Just like the curse, just like the stray
You feed it once and now it stays
Now, it stays
So tear me open but beware
There’s things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me until I’m clean
It grips you so hold me
It stains you, so hold me
It hates you, so hold me
It holds you, so hold me
Until it sleeps
So tell me why you’ve chosen me
Don’t want your grip, don’t want your greed
Don’t want it
I’ll tear me open, make you gone
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me
So hold me, until it sleeps
It grips you, so hold me
It stains you, so hold me
It hates you, so hold me
It holds you
Holds you, holds you
Until it sleeps
I don’t want it, no
So tear me open but beware
There’s things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me ’til I’m clean
I’ll tear me open, make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shapes me
So hold me until it sleeps
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