POS!TIVE - My World

(edit 29/09/2022: I apologize for this description, I didn’t expect it will be noticed by so many...) I was never meant to be a music producer or an artist, idk why I keep doing this stuff, because with each passing day I feel worse and worse. This project was started around March 2021, and yes, I was sitting in it and working on it up until today with maybe 2-3 months break (while also working on other stuff).And YES, im using this caption as opportunity to adress my mental health in all this. Im not a special case or anything but I can’t cope with it for much longer, I no longer enjoy the process and I’m too dumb to understand all the technical stuff like mixing and I feel like a clown sometimes for taking SO long working on this while Im mostly free with no job. All the young producers around me are getting better than me, understanding better, and making a name out of themselves, while Im struggling to finish one mid-sounding track. I have this cancerous habit of comparing myself with others in anything I’m doing, be it producing or drawing and Im ruining my works by over adding stuff to make it sound perfect because Im desperate and I can’t no longer see what Im missing in my works. The short of it is that, at the moment, I feel traumatized because of music and I REALLY don’t want to deal with it any longer because of so many factors I described above... I have a lot more to say about it, but in the end I will just say thank you for the people who support me and appreciate my work despite of it sounding bad, and thank you to Verdant, Thexta and Target Oblivion for helping me cope with this and giving me constant feedbacks on this, pls show these guys some love. (I know how everyone are struggling as well and is all part of the journey but I don’t understand how to cope with it) Idk if I will quit or not, because music is such an annoyance that I can’t even rid myself of it. Enjoy this thing I call “complextro“ for ain’t much but IT IS honest work. Artwork by me: Instagram: Soundcloud: